Just Another Sad Love Story
Posted January 8, 2009on:
The glory of 5 long years of a happy relationship had gone to waste by a single night of lust. I saw myself swirling down the drain. Everything I believed in our relationship have turned into a big question mark. There are many questions in my head, Was it a happy relationship or Was I the only one happy in our relationship? Was he happy with me? Have I love him less? Too much maybe? Or Was I really am a bad lover for him to seek another woman? until now they are all unanswered. I have decided to finally let go of my anger and hatred for the same person who I cherished and yes,I still love. I felt better but all that was left of me was … emptiness. The things we used to do together; now I have to do it alone. Everyday, everything I make just reminds me of him. He is gone and though I want it that way, I miss him terribly. I have known to live my life with him around me. How can I possibly go on with my life without the things that I’m so familiar of? I am scared. Scared of tomorrow because I know that it will just be the same as today; lonely, confused, painful and empty. Once I believed that fairy tales can possibly exist now I know better.